My writing journey began in grade school when I would write for an assignment get it back with a surprising amount of compliments. I was mediocre in my academics. I got good grades, but I worked REALLY hard for them. So to hear I was excellent in something, came as a complete and pleasant surprise. As I pursued a science degree, my writing opportunities grew less frequent, in which scribbling in my private journal became very appealing and satisfying.
Eventually, I lost all urgency to make my handwritten personal journal entries formal, grammatically correct, creative, or filled with juicy vocabulary. This took all the fun out of it and I slowly grew disinterested. When your only mode of creativity is no longer desirable, you end up closing off the entire pathway to the creative portion of your brain. This is what happened to me.
I do not remember what prompted my first public, digital blog — but I will tell you, I kept it a secret from everyone who knew me. It was so vulnerable to put my heart out there — I would edit my posts for weeks before finally posting. What if someone I know reads this and disagrees with me? What if I offend someone? What if my processing makes it onto the screen when it’s still only half-baked and someone draws a conclusion of me that is not accurate? This was going to take baby steps.
These were my fears and they only hurt me. Like I said earlier, writing is my only creative escape. I do not do it for anyone but myself and my own personal processing… which is exactly why I am making a second blog that is not only public, but one in which I am inviting friends and family to follow along. I am a grown woman with opinions and experiences and nuggets of Holy Spirit-instilled wisdom that I need to confidently proclaim without fear of what anyone else concludes about me because of it.
So, here I am.
My prayer is that God reignites my creative fire and uses it as an avenue in which to speak to me. I also hope someone will feel comforted by the words throughout this blog and that they would inspire or motivate… or something like that. I must warn you: Some of the words on this blog will be Christ’s heart permeating out of my fingers and into this computer. Others will be my own heart and it’s desires and hopes for the world and people. Finally, others will be my imperfect human passion that gets triggered by the other imperfect humans of this world. It may come out, it may not be pretty, but I am really working on not filtering out the things that aren’t pretty. You’ve been warned and I hope you still choose to join me. 🙂
Xoxo,
Hannah Wilson
Hannah in the Homeland 